Lost in the...

I have been missing and this time I do not even have a good excuse. I guess you could say summer has gotten the best of me. I have been reading. I remember my first road trip with the lovely Andrea we spent a week in California over Christmas break. Unfortunately for her I read in any spare time I could find. I love reading books that do not require much brain power but instead take you to another place. Reading a good book allows you to get lost in someone's troubles and not dwell on your own. 

I read the Hunger Games. I fell in love with Katniss, Peeta and Gale. I also fell off of the work wagon. Often trading full days of work to finish my book. Work is on the outs for me. My Dad's company is not doing well and I will be going from full time to less than part time. I am stressed to find a job. I am not the only one looking for work and that is what scares me. I have been scared, stressed and a little lonely. The perfect combination to get lost in a world that is not your own. To cheer your favorite new characters through life dangering times. To laugh with them and cry with them. To want there safety and sanity even it means losing your own. 

I have been praying a lot lately, and not just for my new favorite heroine. I have been praying for myself so that I may have the strength to put myself out there and look for the things that are falling apart around me. Mainly a job and maybe if I am honest a little company. It is just that sometimes it is easier to lose yourself in the troubles of your favorite fictional character than do the things that truly scare you.

xoxo 

a very scared and prayerful 

Madison

A Week in Hawaii

I have been absent, but for good reason I promise. I spent the last week on the lovely island of Oahu with some amazing women. You see cousin Stacey is going on her mission (that is if the new boyfriend doesn't get to her first) in June and Aunt Cyndy invited my mom and I to join on their fabulous island get-a-way. They did lots of exercising, hiking and picture taking. I did lots of eating, reading, and sitting. I loved getting away and I loved getting home even more. Here are a few highlights and lowlights (see those stairs at the bottom? those were the stairs to hell I seriously thought I was going to pass out....maybe I should hit the gym) of the incredible vacation.

Second Times the Charm?

(me and bestie andrea isn't she lovely?)

I could not do it. I lived at home for a total of 13 days before deciding to move out again. I love my family and having my own room and not having to grocery shop (lets be real I love not having to drive to Orem to eat my parents groceries), I loved watching TV on demand, I loved talking to my mom before work and the brothers before bed, I loved having water pressure and soft water and  yet all these things was not enough to keep me home. I made the decision Sunday after attending my old singles ward. The energy was addicting. I called Monday and found an apartment completely empty. Perfect for my lovely bestie Andrea and I. I am going back to King Henry for round two. Once again I am excited and yet I still feel as if I have regressed in life going back to a place that I have already experienced.  But maybe that is what life is about. Returning to places, people and things that have made you happy in the past. I hope this is true. I hope I will enjoy myself this summer like I did last summer.I guess we will just have to see.